Because I did that thing we all do and didn't make the progress I expected when I expected it and was embarrassed.
Here's the thing though: I was embarrassed because I wasn't hitting the ridiculous expectation I set for myself, which was unintentionally based on the false narrative that so many magazines and commercials spew that weight loss is only valid if it happens impressively. Wanna drop 15 pounds? You can do it in 2 weeks. Slim tummy? 10 days. Fabulous booty? Do this for a week.
You read it and you know it's not normal and not likely, and just because someone somewhere did it doesn't mean its remotely reasonable to expect anyone to do it. You know this, but logic takes a backseat to insecurities. Working out hard for 3 months and not seeing the changes you want feels like failure, and who wants to advertise their failure?
But it's not failure. It's establishing better habits and healthy practices that have a positive impact, regardless of what level of "measurable" changes you see on a scale. Accepting that is the hardest part of such a journey. Numbers on both the scale and the body fat % tester barely moved, but I was feeling better. That should take priority over anything else.
We're now at 5 months after I started taking an active approach to eating differently and working out. I'm currently at 130lbs, which is my pre-surgery weight. My clothes fit better and I feel better about myself when I look in the mirror, and while I still want to take it a little bit further, the fact that I'm down 14 lbs from where I started (and 20 lbs from my worst, right after Day 5 finished production) is huge. The fact that it took me 5 months to get there versus 2 shouldn't diminish that. I found a pace that was and is sustainable, so weight that has come off is more likely to stay off.